Wednesday, August 11, 2010

One Year Ago I Was Saying Goodbye!

This post is totally unrelated to makeup.



It's been almost a year since you left.

It's been a year of ups and downs, struggles and triumphs, love and life, babies, toddlers, dirty faces, poopy diapers, silly giggles, pigtails, pink bows, and Kindergartner's. Not a single day has passed this entire year that you haven't crossed my mind at least once. Some days I reflect on the good times. Some days Ireflect on the arguments, the discussions, and the disagreements. Some days I reflect on the scenery and think you'd like the sunset or the color of the clouds at dusk. Some days I just simply miss you.

You told me the last time that I saw you to "Find Happiness." And I'm working on that Dad. I struggle within myself and falter, like most. I have issues to overcome and burdens to bear, but I will eventually come out of it all happy. I have a great family who make me whole. Who make me, ME.

My children are beautiful and artistic. Thank you for passing that down through the generations.

Leia still says "Grandma and Poppie." She misses you too, because you, me and her are all just alike. Triplet souls in a Scorpio world.

Dade is almost in Kindergarten. He's getting so big. And you'd be proud. He has his Momma's spirit, but also his Momma's stubbornness. Dade is going to be just fine in the big wide world.

Cooper..OH Cooper! He's a feisty one. He's a little ball of 15 month old slime and goo, smiles and drool, and has the best light in his eyes. He's full of life. He's full of love. He's a lot like you!

I think from time to time I can hear you laughing. Or I can hear you grumbling. Either way, I just hear YOU. And I miss YOU.

I will forever think of you, daily. I miss my Dad, but I thank you for making me who I am and leaving me with words of wisdom that helped me create a better place for myself in this world.

I love you Daddy!

See you on the other side.


Samuel Pilgreen: 11/07/1940 – 08/16/2009

So in love...until the end.


  1. That picture of your mom and dad is perfect. This made me cry, but in a good way. Your dad would be proud - even if he wouldn't tell you. I can't believe it's been a year already. It has been one hell of a year, hasn't it?

  2. I'm so sorry for your loss. This was a touching post. I'm sure he is smiling down on you and your family. Lots of love darling.

  3. im sorry for you loss <3

    you've got a typo in your dates says he passes a few days from now

  4. Echoing what everyone else has said. He sounds like a wonderful person.

  5. That picture at the end made me cry - I hope I find someone as great as your father who will still look at me with such loving after all that time.

  6. So beautiful, so very sad...thank you for sharing this, especially the photo. I'm so sorry you and your family had to lose someone capable of inspiring so much love.

  7. I don't think I've ever cried reading a post before. That last picture is so precious.

  8. I very very recently lost my Dad so every word you wrote really struck a chord with me. I hope that, in time, I can become as strong as you are now.

    He will forever be proud of you just for being you!


  9. What a touching tribute to your Dad. As I read it, I thought of my Dad who passed 31 years ago. You never stop missing them!

  10. Beautifully written and from the heart - this was very touching. I am sorry to hear of your loss...happy that you are healing. *hugs*

  11. Very touching tribute to what was undoubtedly a great father!

  12. I'm wiping away tears. This was beautiful.

  13. OMGosh, thank you everyone. You are all so sweet and wonderful!

  14. I was in tears when I read this, so sweet and from the heart. I lost my dad over 5 years ago and still miss him every day. I see little glimpses of him in my children, which always gives me a little smile. And I swear he comes to me in my dreams and we have talks. I always wake up feeling very peaceful on those days. Thanks for sharing. :)

  15. im so sorry for your loss. I am a new follower and that letter made me tear up.


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